Hey guys!!! Happy Tuesday. Hope your week has been productive so far. I’ve just spent mine at home working on my blog and YouTube channel, tryna create and schedule more content for you all.
Today I’m back with a women empowerment post and wanna discuss a topic that bothers a lot of us women. Body image is a struggle for so many women. For me personally, it has always been a slight bother. I was a really chubby baby…like overweight type of baby so I know I have the potential to be overweight. I quickly lost the weight when I joined school. My weight has a tendency to fluctuate a lot.
After completing my KCPE exams, which is primary school in Kenya, I immediately added so much weight during that holiday because I mean all I was doing was eating and sleeping. I went to high school more than 5 kgs heavier than I was in primary which definitely affected my self-esteem and self-confidence especially because people would constantly comment about it. I was known as the girl with the big behind which I really really really didn’t like. Like, why must my weight be a topic of discussion. I wasn’t overweight or anything but the slight judgements here and there definitely affected me. After I completed my high school in Nairobi, I moved to Cape Town, South Africa and again my weight dropped like crazy! That year my weight kept fluctuating so much. It’s just so annoying when people comment about my weight like, oh my gosh you’ve lost too much weight or oh my gosh you’re adding too much like WHY CAN’T YOU JUST LET ME BE! How exactly is my weight bothering or affecting you.
When I joined university my weight stabilized a bit until this year when it suddenly dropped again quite rapidly. Before this, like late last year, I was getting a lot of negative comments about how I used to have this hour glass figure but now my tummy was starting to become ‘too big’. Oh my goodness can’t a girl just live! So when I randomly lost a lot of weight this year, the questions and suspicious looks started again. I have been asked if I’m starving myself, if I have a disease, if I am depressed, just so many unnecessary questions. I can’t help but wonder why nothing is ever enough for us humans. When I’m chubby it’s a problem, when I’m skinny it’s also a problem. I have learned that I can never please anyone and all that matters is whether I feel comfortable enough in my own skin….aaaaand I’m so proud to say that I really do love my body now. No matter all the hate I get I have learned to love myself in this body. If I lose more weight, I’ll still be in love with this body and if I add more weight I’ll still be in love with this body. And that’s all that really matters. When I feel confident about myself, I exude beauty. It doesn’t matter what people say, even if they may be your boyfriends, friends, husbands, family, etc. Start by loving yourself and if they cannot love you in your own skin then you need to rethink why they are still in your life.
I just thought I should share this with y’all. I’ve been wanting to talk about it for so long but was really shy about doing so until now. I shot the photos in this post a while back during one of my study breaks in Cape Town. I love how they turned out. I was trying to experiment more with body shapes and angles to show that I love all forms and angles of my body and you should too!!! I hope this helps someone. Leave me a comment sharing with me any of the weight struggles you’ve encountered as well.
Also, I’m so excited to tell you all that I have started a 30 day vlogging challenge where I’ll be uploading a YouTube video every day for 30 days. Check out the first two videos which I’ll link below. Subscribe to my channel so that you don’t miss out on any of the upcoming videos. The next one is fashion related 😉
Until next time